AmazinGrace - 25 November 2005

GESL is finally over.. well, at least the main event is over and what's left is the usual reflections and the 6 Ws.. for the uninitiated, that's "What went well?" and "What went wrong?".. I shall not bore you with that here, and spare you all the details.. of course, the main reason is that I don't wanna do it now and have to go through it again the second time when the group meets.. whatever it is, itz over, and with that, the final assignment of this year.. HOLS..

well, the day started with bad weather, vividly remember waking up at 6 to see lightning flashes and hear thunder roaring.. *my prayers were answered* knowing that the event still had to go on, I woke up to prepare my "wet-weather gear", which meant ziplock bags, groundsheet, the goretex jacket, blah blah.. AmazinGly, the rain seems to slow to a rather heavy drizzle by 7 and I figured that was AmazinGrace indeed.. so well, off to Sentosa with Jack (thanks a lot for all the trips that you made in the Civic)

got there early, and waited for kinda long for the rest of the station masters to turn up, which they eventually did.. gathered, got briefed, set out on our way.. found myself a real cosy spot under the tower at my station (Southern most point of the Asian Continent if you really wanna know), set out my groundsheet and started to wait.. first team came in after quite a long wait, and after an even longerrrrr wait, the second and third teams came in simultaneously..

then after a rather longggg wait too, the fourth team came.. followed by the fifth.. DUH! after that, I packed up and went for lunch.. so there were event planned for after lunch but well, things didn't exactly go as planned, so the kids had free time on the beach.. after that, we sent them on their way to the transport and we were on our way homes..

guess it was a really tiring day, and the incessant drizzle was quite irritating too, but I must say it was a day well-spent.. even though it started as a "How can they force us to do community service?" thing, I believed that each and everyone of us went through the whole thing with their best efforts, and can be proud to come away saying "How can they force us to do community service?".. Because forcing us to do it degrades the value of community service, done becoz it's compulsory and not becoz we were willing to do it..

granted that most of us would not have done it if it wasn't compulsory, but well.. mixed feelings here.. anyway, the event is over, so thatz that.. many thanks to all the people of Grp 22 - PathFinders (corny, but yeah..) for the great time.. and especially to my Logistics team - Jack, Liang, Maggie, and Del-Del - for all the effort put in and for all the help given throughout the entire planning and 'putting into action' process.. you guys n gals have been great!

alritey, now that the last thing that has pre-occupied my mind for the past week has disappeared, I'm lost again, and stay tuned for even more crappy posts from now on as my brain goes through itz usual vegetative state throughout the hols.. stay away, check back only in January if you cannot stand meaningless post.. haha.. I'm joking, not.. =P

View from the top of "MY" tower!

BORED!!

I'm bored.. just applied the finishing touches to my micro-teaching assignment.. what is micro teaching? it's a "7 minute showcase of what you think you do best in a classroom context", an "exciting trailer of your lesson for NT pupils". yep, that's what it is..

don't wanna say much about that, enough has been said over msn already, and I have no wish to post unplesantries on my blog, yep, so that's that.. ARGH!! ok, that feels so much better.. ok, really no idea why I'm still up blogging, feeling bored when I have to wake up early tmr to go to the library to print my stuff, but basically I can't get to sleep in this wonderfully cold weather..

maybe it's the "power-nap" that I took earlier on, or maybe my bio clock's screwed, and why can blame it? used to sleeping when the sun gets up, and having dinner as breakfast.. a sure mix for disaster I would say.. but well, that's my life la, already very used to it, but that has to change, and soon..

anyway, feel that my recent posts have really been crappy, and I'm wondering why too.. Just don't seem to make sense to me anymore, and maybe the creative brain cells are all dead from trying to think up innovative activities to put in the LPs (lesson plans!! nothing else, seriously), so nothing much else to put here.. nothing much happening in my life too, so there's nothing much to put la..

aiya, I'm crapping to increase the number of words here, honestly, I do swear that I'm crapping to increase the number of words here.. (see, I told you I was crapping to increase the number of words here by putting "crapping to increase the number of words" four times already) hah.. I can really crap.. wateva la.. gone! tmr will be the first, and hopefully last time I'm in shirt and pants on NIE.. impossible.. shucks..

一路向北 - 周杰倫

後視鏡裏的世界 越來越遠的道別
你轉身向背 側臉還是很美
我用眼光去追 竟聽見你的淚
在車窗外面排徊 是我錯失的機會
你站的方位 跟我中間隔著淚
街景一直在後退 你的崩潰在窗外零碎

我一路向北 離開有你的季節
你說你好累 已無法再愛上誰
風在山路吹 過往的畫面全都是我不對
細數慚愧 我傷你幾回

後視鏡裏的世界 越來越遠的道別
你轉身向背 側臉還是很美
我用眼光去追 竟聽見你的淚
在車窗外面排徊 是我錯失的機會
你站的方位 跟我中間隔著淚
街景一直在後退 你的崩潰在窗外零碎

我一路向北 離開有你的季節
你說你好累 已無法再愛上誰
風在山路吹 過往的畫面全都是我不對
細數慚愧 我傷你幾回

我一路向北 離開有你的季節
方向盤周圍 回轉著我的後悔
我加速超越 卻甩不掉緊緊跟隨的傷悲
細數慚愧 我傷你幾回
停止狼狽 就讓錯純粹

Cutted(sic) and Pasted

Read this on my friend's blog, thought it's kinda interesting (not to mention a rather "shameless" way of getting people to post comments, haha), so decided to cut and paste it here.. here goes..

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you with a sharpened pencil (an e-mailed virus would seem rather more appropriate here) either way.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

Going somewhere?

hmm.. there's been a change in plans for my hols.. yes, I'm going somewhere afterall.. my dearest managed to ballot for her company's villa in Bintan, I'm gonna have free accomodation for 3d2n.. haha.. seems like some part of my recent trips have all been free stuff.. first air tix to BKK, now this.. =)
well, a good opportunity to get away and recharge my batteries.. esp when it's coming almost in late Dec, after my birthday, so well, the last chance for relaxation before the mad rush begins next sem again..
oh well, that's still about a month away, so there's something to look forward to.. meantime, life's really kinda boring without any assignments.. and I mean it.. I'm not crazy or something, but hey, there's really something lacking.. why couldn't they have like spread those 11 assignments over these 2 months instead of cramming it into 2 weeks?
guess my recent posts haven't really been going anywhere, seems to be lacking in direction.. no idea why too.. maybe the brain cells were all damaged in the past few weeks and finding it hard to recover.. or horrors of horrors.. my brain only works when it is stimulated by tonnes of assignments..
well, I don't know.. you tell me.. I give up thinking..

Posting for the sake of posting..

Hmm.. nothing's happening in my life now, hence, posting for the sake of posting.. haha.. Did the module registration thingy AGAIN today, didn't get my first choice, so well, second choice will have to do.. ironically, the second choice was my initial first coice, so.. maybe it was fated after all.. but not that bad, at least I learnt that there are familiar people taking the same mod, so guess that's fine..

what else can I talk about here? don't wanna complain about my life coz frankly there's really nothing much to complain about.. life's good at the moment, no assignments pressing, no deadlines looming.. but this is like so surreal.. like one moment everything was squeezing the last breath, the last drop of blood out of you and suddenly, the blood's flowing normally, u can enjoy healthy lungfuls of air..

guess this always happens after the adrenalin rush of assignments and exams.. after everything, there's this overwhelming sense of loss that can't seem to be filled in that instant.. things take time to come back to you, and when you're really starting to enjoy the free time, the sem starts again and that sense of breathlessness comes back again.. can't really say which one I enjoy more, but I guess I rather feel lost than breathless.. at least I'm breathing..

so well, yeah, I'm breathing normally again, so usually when that happens, whatever I blog is crap, and so if you don't take notice of this post, I won't blame you.. if you do take notice, well, there's something I can tell you.. "God, you sure are one bored person!" but at least, you're not alone.. you have me.. haha.. anyone wanna play pool? *scratches hands*

Finally!!

Yeah finally, finished up the last assignment, or at least, the last assignment for now.. next one's due only end of November, so that gives me some time to breathe normally.. and oh, I finished the the riddle game as well, so that's something that deserves "finally!!" as well, and yeah, I finished that before I did my assignment.. had to get it off my mind..
so well, one sememster in NIE has officially come to a close, and seriously, what have I really learnt? I'm not too sure too.. doing lesson plans for one, loads of technical terms which I seriously doubt would ever see the light of day again, and perhaps, some other unpleasant things as well which I feel is not worth mentioning altogether..
whatever it is, this certainly means that I'm half a year closer to really teaching, and well, really having mixed feeling about it.. how I would handle it, how things might turn out, even which school I might be posted to, but hmm.. that's still sometime away, so guess I'll just enjoy my break for now without too much worries.. =P