Inter JC Staff soccer..

juz had the soccer tournament today.. started off really badly with the rain pouring down like crazy, but luckily, it stopped and we could continue with the games..

guess we didn't do too badly considering this was the first time we were taking part, but not making it past the round robin stage was rather disappointing too.. oh well, at least it was fun, and an enriching experience, not to mention a good workout.. hah..

had dinner at simpang with the guys after that, and we kinda arranged for another session for thursday after invigilation at MJ.. hope my body would have recovered by then.. aching all over now man..

hmm.. guess this kinda "report what you did today" thingy isn't what I'm really cut out for.. which explains why this post seems rather nonsensical.. in my opinion.. oh well.. think I'm updating for the sake of updating again.. and as usual, I absolutely hate that.. ciaos..

Lost it?

is it fair to have different expectations? should we have higher expectations just because one is more well-behaved than the other? I don't know.. thatz what happened today, and i guess it was really that much more disappointing becoz i expected so much more, but am wondering now if it is fair.. afterall, they're just 16/17 year old kids who have an A level exam to be concerned about..

well, still wondering how i lost my cool today, and seriously, why.. itz not my problem afterall, and itz not my future.. am i that attached that i got carried away? should that be happening? used to pride myself for being able to draw that line between work n personal life, but somehow.. oh well..

frankly, i wasn't a tiny bit angry at all, but juz really disappointed, and somehow got really emo abt it.. maybe coz i was tired today.. maybe coz it built up from the morning.. maybe coz it was s14.. whatever it is, it's over, and i should just let it go.. punish the deed, not the person.. how true.. let's see how it is on friday then..

Updates?

hmm.. been out and about since the marking and analysis ended, and haven't really got to rest much.. but well, so many people have been asking me to update that I think I should.. but where do I start?

how abt saturday morning where I was playing soccer and somehow was tripped and ended up whacking my head on the ground? the headache and the puking feeling that I had all afternoon was quite fun, made me think for a moment that I was suffering from concussion or some other shitty thingy.. but it wasn't that bad.. guess it was juz a lack of sleep, and too many people..

sunday morning was dumb as well.. played soccer again, and we were like dying in the sauna-like haze, so stopped after some time.. went KV after for billiard.. den back home before heading to Atrium for some vietnamese dinner thingy coz Charles jio-ed.. following that, went down to Ice Cold and basically rotted there while the rest drank.. the chicken wings and wedges were good though.. hah.. and so that ended my most eventful sunday for the past 3 years I guess.. i usually spend my sundays playing soccer, sleeping, and watching soccer.. hah..

so well.. monday was fine.. bumped into kenneth at my coffee shop.. kinda coincidental.. i don't eat at that coffee shop much so.. evening, met up with david to get details for the taipei trip.. nthg much was agreed coz there was still so much to check up on, so well.. hah.. went pool fusion after that for a few rounds before heading home..

looking forward to the trip, though it's still like another month or so away.. hope that it'll be good this time around as well.. am now hunting for hotels in taipei that are cheap n good.. any recommendations?

New Taggie..

got so sick n tired of waiting for that f***ing thingy to fix itself that I decided to get rid of it.. yes.. goodbye, so long, farewell..
so now, tag on.. tag on.. *crapz*.. feeling lousy today..

Another personality test?

Your Working Style

You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about.

You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.

In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable. If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch. You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done. You have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer. You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination, and a sense of beauty and proportion are important. You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals. You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.

You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can be true even when you are being as effective as others. You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.

It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself. Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed.

TGIO - Thank God It's Over..

Marking's finally over.. after the past 3 weeks of almost continuous marking, from class assignments to promo exams.. oh well.. phew..
hmm.. hope I can breathe easier now that everything is sort of over, and the year's winding slowly to an end.. how fast it is.. 2006.. *poof* gone..
well.. nothing much to say really.. mind's a blank.. only silly logic from essays I've read that keeps bouncing around in my head.. argh..

Of markers and memories..

alrite.. am in the midst of marking essays but just need to get this off my head coz it's been pestering me for the past few days..

as you can see from my msn nick.. "Why are good memories written with a whiteboard marker, while bad memories with a permanent marker?"

there's a continuation to that.. "At least the permanent marks can be gotten rid of with the help of a whiteboard marker.. Can you ever erase bad memories with good memories?"

I wonder.. permanent marks require you to go over them once with a whiteboard marker to be erased, but how many good memories do you need to erase one bad one? or is it even possible?

think this GP essay thingy is getting to me.. might be a good holiday essay assignment though.. "Can bad memories ever be erased completely by good ones?" - define memories, define good, define bad, define erase, take note of the absolute term 'completely', blah blah..

whatever la.. I'm wandering from my initial task of marking, from my intention of creating this post, but yet I'm not lost.. hence, "not all that wander are lost".. =P