2008

As the year draws to a close, perhaps it's time to reflect on what has been an exceptionally long year, or so it seems.. so many things seemed to have happened from last year till now, and as 2008 is about to become history, I just had this sudden urge to log in again and post..

frankly, so many things have happened this year, some good, some bad.. friends around me have things happening to them to, marriages, new relationships, break-ups.. at 28 really, when people look to settle down and all, it seems that things just get more complicated.. and it's not like getting married and settling down is the end of the story..

so well, congrats to those who have embarked on their new journeys, for those who have ended their journey one way or another, don't be too upset, coz new journeys are there waiting, new chapters waiting to be written..

school has been quite crazy this year too, workload was seriously heavy at times, but I coped.. not too well at times, and there have been occassions that have driven me beyond bearable limits, but I'm still hanging around.. thankfully or not, I'm not sure.. 08S19 has been a joy and a pain all at the same time.. don't think I've ever done so much for a class, don't think I'll ever do it again, but who knows.. this might be the first and last class that I see graduate from JC..

been talking to people.. the ones who have broken up are upset.. the ones who are attached are unsure.. emotions sure screw people upside down at times, and can be so fucking complicated.. really, why bother sometimes.. but yet, we put ourselves through all that.. is it because of social conditioning that we think that we must have someone to love, and have someone love us, and hopefully, to simplify matters, that the someone is the same person?

people have told me too that I seem aloof at times, "dao", not sociable, anti-social, that I do things rather "alone", and all.. and maybe, more and more, I do feel that way too.. i love being with my friends, my bros, but yet, even at times when hanging out, I feel like I shut myself off, i'm off in another zone of my own, and i do enjoy that solitary silence that i find.. i don't know..

there have been many things this year that I did and know I shouldn't have, but there were others that I was glad I did.. I think that's normal.. perhaps it isn't, but I don't really care.. i've always been more guided by emotions, and though this may be bad, it's not necessarily a weakness too.. so well..

ah.. another random post with random thoughts.. rather like the past couple of posts, if I remember correctly.. i don't know.. i'm probably just as confused in life as many of my peers are.. mid-life crisis perhaps? haha.. oh well.. 2009, here I come..