Thursday, May 22, 2008

GP MYE tmr..

went to sch today feeling that there was something to be done, and when it was finally done, I was glad, glad that you liked the stuff I got. it wasn't anything much really, but I hope that it means something to you still.

exam paper sorting this week meant I was away from my seat for quite some time, and your consults also meant that you were away. didn't get to talk much though I dearly wanted to. but yesterday was nice, probably the last time you'll sit in my corner in "ice-land". I like that feeling, I really do, and I'll always treasure it.

GP MYE is tmr.. I hope my desperate attempts at fire-fighting in the past 2 weeks will work somehow, and that the skills I tried to impart will somehow rub off on my kids. I know I haven't done a good job this term, and there's so much more that I could have done, and should have, but didn't. I'm sorry.

felt so bad that I spent about an hour coming up with that sample AQ answer which I hope would help somehow.. hopefully, my kids will somehow get an idea of what I was trying to get across and be able to do something..

GP MYE is tmr, but frankly, I'm not really concerned. My mind's not on it.. how can it be, if thoughts of you constantly fill my mind.. I hope somehow that you'll think of me too. I may not be wonderful, but I hope I've been good enough.

goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend. you'll be in my thoughts always, and you'll always have that special place in my heart, where not many have been, and where not many will stay.

sense of emptiness, sense of loneliness. I smile, but i cry inside. I joke with my kids in class, but it rings hollow within me. have this overwhelming urge to lay down and die. there's so much to do, so much I can do, but I'm so so tired, I just can't. I just don't want to anymore. Is this the sign? Can I just.. sigh.. Should I just.. sigh.. Maybe I should.. But yet I can't.. I'm dying inside, but can anyone see it? Can anyone feel it? but just let me be.. let it be..

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