Rotting away..
It's amazing how people always find things to do when they're bored.. I'm amazed because I'm not one of them.. Woke up early today to do the registration thingy only to realise now that there was an error in the system and that I'll have to do it all over again.. woke up in vain.. sigh.. oh ya, as I was saying, how do people find time to occupy their free time? I've been to the same websites countless times and they have not been updated at all.. I'm bored..
Funny how things are really.. when you have lots of things to do, you juz have even more things to do.. like when I was rushing my assignments, there were so many things that Iwanted to do.. like re-design my blog, read my books, blah blah.. but now that things have quietened down, well, my blog has a new design, a new song, and I suddenly don't feel like reading my books.. so well.. get what I mean?
I think it's weird how I function.. when I'm busy, I like to find things to do that make me busier, but when I'm free, I never seem to be able to find anything to occupy myself.. which explains why I'm here now posting.. can't find anything better to do, and thought it might help if I captured what I'm feeling now here.. maybe I can do research on it next time when I'm feeling bored again.. but well..
nothing much.. juz haven't really been feeling good for the past week I guess.. been my usual AS self, keeping to myself mostly and hiding in my room.. there are times where you just want to keep alone and not talk to anyone but a few.. don't you people have that too? it's natural, I hope, or perhaps it's juz me, and that won't exactly surprise me..
some people like to find someone to talk to when they're feeling down.. me? I seek solitary solace, find my own quiet place and iron out anything within me.. perhaps that's why I always have this emotionless face which doesn't smile.. but I'm sure anger appears clearly on my face, as some of you have unfortunatly witnessed.. that's a side of me that I've always tried suppressing, but somehow fail..
guess it's already much better than before, but typical of people like me, the flaring up is always not a nice spectacle which should be avoided at all cost.. even I don't like myself when I'm pissed off.. hmm.. guess I can keep on rambling, moving from one thing to another, but shan't bore you with my words of boredom.. want to hear more of my life story? juz tok to mi and there might be a time where I may just open up to you.. just like the special few who already have heard snippets of my story.. hah.. as I said, I'm AS.. I need people to make the first move.. **ciaos**
Funny how things are really.. when you have lots of things to do, you juz have even more things to do.. like when I was rushing my assignments, there were so many things that Iwanted to do.. like re-design my blog, read my books, blah blah.. but now that things have quietened down, well, my blog has a new design, a new song, and I suddenly don't feel like reading my books.. so well.. get what I mean?
I think it's weird how I function.. when I'm busy, I like to find things to do that make me busier, but when I'm free, I never seem to be able to find anything to occupy myself.. which explains why I'm here now posting.. can't find anything better to do, and thought it might help if I captured what I'm feeling now here.. maybe I can do research on it next time when I'm feeling bored again.. but well..
nothing much.. juz haven't really been feeling good for the past week I guess.. been my usual AS self, keeping to myself mostly and hiding in my room.. there are times where you just want to keep alone and not talk to anyone but a few.. don't you people have that too? it's natural, I hope, or perhaps it's juz me, and that won't exactly surprise me..
some people like to find someone to talk to when they're feeling down.. me? I seek solitary solace, find my own quiet place and iron out anything within me.. perhaps that's why I always have this emotionless face which doesn't smile.. but I'm sure anger appears clearly on my face, as some of you have unfortunatly witnessed.. that's a side of me that I've always tried suppressing, but somehow fail..
guess it's already much better than before, but typical of people like me, the flaring up is always not a nice spectacle which should be avoided at all cost.. even I don't like myself when I'm pissed off.. hmm.. guess I can keep on rambling, moving from one thing to another, but shan't bore you with my words of boredom.. want to hear more of my life story? juz tok to mi and there might be a time where I may just open up to you.. just like the special few who already have heard snippets of my story.. hah.. as I said, I'm AS.. I need people to make the first move.. **ciaos**
posted by Fallen Angel at 13:30
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