Strange Feelings

alright, got back without getting caught in the rain, and since the weather was so nice, decided to snooze for a while.. a while turned out to be 5 hrs and when I woke up at 2230, I was like.. "Oh no.." still have an exam paper to set by Friday but haven't done anything about it at all.. but strangely, I don't seem in the mood to start at all.. (guess that won't sound strange to most who know me, but it somehow feels strange to me today)
as all the mad rushing for assignments draws to a close (I still have 2 major ones by next week), somehow there's this sense of loss.. loss of direction.. somehow there's like so many things that I wanna do during this upcoming hols which would be the longest one I'll have for quite some time to come.. (read: until retirement or I quit) but yet, everything seems so fluid now, no concrete plans when people all around me are already booking or have booked their air tix..
perhaps I really need a break, some alone time, and was thinking of maybe flying off somewhere alone to find peace within myself.. not that I'm not happy with my current situation, but just need to think things through, reconcile some differences that I think is within me.. with things moving so fast around me, I just can't seem to have the time to sit down and pinpoint these issues..
feeling strange tonight, a sense of loss, a sense of emptiness, which strikes once in a while.. never reallie know what brings them on, just know that they seriously disrupt the work flow, but puts the mood to blog in place.. don't expect an emotional outpouring though, for that is not my style.. anyway, don't know what's going on, so well, perhaps there's nothing going on at all.. =